Sports

Hahahaha...talking about this makes me laugh my head off. Long ago when I was in school time, I am an active person. I play badminton, netball and volleyball. By that time I was crazy slim. Gosh... I really do miss my slim body. Now I'm gaining more weight... Look at my ups and downs of weight...

2001 - 99 lbs ( 16 yrs old )
2002 - 125 lbs
2003 - 121 lbs
2004 - 125 lbs
2005 - 114 lbs
2006 - 138 lbs
2007 - 121 lbs
2008 - 132 lbs
2009 - 154 lbs
2010 - 149 lbs ( 25 yrs old )

Duhh... so much for the diet... I was dieting after my weight has reached to 138 lbs. That time I was recovering from Insomnia. I ate a lot and did no excercising. Then something knocked me and I started to realize that I must lose weight. I was worried that the fact that I can't fit into my dresses and my jeans. That's scary. So I did crush dieting. Not eating carbs at all for the whole 3 months...

Breakfast : I only ate 3 pieces of biscuit or sandwiches with Milo
Lunch : Vegetable soup or fish soup
Dinner : Vegetable soup + fruits

In the meantime, I excercise 4 hours a day. 2 hours in the morning and 2 hours in the evening. I lost weight too fast. I am happy I can fit in my clothes again but the risk is I almost fallen ill for not having enough vitamins and nutrients. I always feeling dizzy. Tired. And sometimes there's blood running from my nose. After that I was suffering from a massive headache. This is wrong as I was torturing myself. Then I started to eat healthy again.

As years passed by, and I'm getting bigger and bigger. Not to mention that I'm ugly too. My clothes began to shrink and me being a GIANT. So horrible. Now I wonder, how fast the time has passed me by and transform me into something I don't want to be. But, in time... my body just let me be. I wish I could be slim again. Now I almost pushing myself not to eat too much and always make myself sweaty so that I can burn the calories. Not forgetting to drink a lot of water.

There's always pain when one wants to be beautiful...

I'm so tired today

One whole day we're doing nothing but go through our website to find out the weakness that are still existed. Me, Ms Mui, Mdm Siti, Mr. Alex and Mr. Jazz were sitting along and exploring the web. ( The website address is confidential ). We've been creating new account on the website so that we could notice if there's something wrong. We started from 11.00 am and stopped just now. About 4.47 pm. What a tiring day. Using our brain 100% trying to figure out what's wrong and what not. Still there's some problem here and there. Hope that it'll be fixed soon. Of course after we send the report to the HQ. Well after brainstorming my head out, I have been told to put loads of files to the cabinet room. I have to use the trolley. I have to do this and that. And bla...bla...bla... Haaaa...at last I could find time to do put something on my blog. Last night I am extremely tired and I couldn't even blink. I was so sleepy after watching the movie. Sorry... ~(^,^)~ ...Well, just forget about that. Now I'm packing my things and I wanna get out of here. I just contacted my fiancee's BFF. We will go hangout tonight. It's been long since I last spend time with them. Tonight we will have loads of fun... Can't wait to see them. :D

Today is...what everrrrrrrrrr~~~

1st of all...damn!!!

I hated people that are bias to others...
It's not fair...
We live by a rule then follow the rule...
He's overrulling everything...

World nowadays are really cruel and unfair...
No one deserves to be treated like that...
I know the feeling coz I've been there not long ago...
I don't like to see it in another face...
Full with burden to bear...
Hard to think, hard to speak, and hard to take any action...

Feeling down all the way...
Nobody to share it with coz one will only listen but one can't help...
So here I was...
Taking a deep breath...

Hoping that someday someone will never feel the same way again...

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Stop!!!

This night I will go out with my colleagues to watch movie...
It's been long since I last watched movies with my fiancee last year in November...
We are going to watch Spy Next Door...
Tonight is the ladies night so the ticket will be cheap...
So I'll see you after coming back from the cinema...
Chiao!!!
xoxo

How much I miss you my dear...

Today is Tuesday. 2nd of February 2010. He has left to KL since 28th of November last year. It was 68 days we've been far from each other. Now I'm not feeling well coz I caught a cold. I got running nose and in just a few hours from now, maybe I'll catch a fever. My antibody has going down since the hospital is like my 2nd getaway instead of my workplace. I always getting sick and can't afford to do anything especially when my headache starts to control my brain. Urgh!!! If I could buy a new head then I'll buy it. As long as this pain inside my head got cleared off. There I go babbling again. The fact is I want to just slipped my mind away from missing him. I missed my loved one so so so so so very much. I feel lonely when he's not around. Anyway we always keep in touch by texting and calling each other. And we even get in touch on Facebook. I missed him so bad. Owh... I wanna cry... T_T ... That's why I have to keep him off my mind. It's not that I don't love him or not missing him anymore but I can't get over him and have to agree to the fact that I was being so far from him. Eventhough we are as strong as we used to be before he left but I can't chase away my heavy feeling of missing him everyday. I wish I could fly and see him there only for once just to see if he's okay ( the truth is...if I would be okay after seeing him ). I promise you my dear...whatever things that happens into our relationship...I'll protect it and I will never giving up on our love. I want to marry you!!! You're the one I want to be with till the end of my life.

" To you my love...
You must know that your presence in my life has enlighten my days and nights...
You bring miracles upon your sense of love and tenderness...
For you my love, I'd do anything that pleases you...
I'll cross the line if I had to...
Just to have you loving me more than you did before...

And so you know...
I will never stop loving you..."


I love you so much my dear...mmuuaahhxx

xoxo

Ahhh...at last

I already updated my blog and waalaaah!!! LOVE IT so much... I changed my blog layout. Thanks to Pyzam.com coz making my blog really nice...

What I Like About Blogging

What I like about blogging?Hmm... they are more like a journal to me. A bit "transparent" from any other social networks. I am indeed an open minded person but I think I'm not "open" enough to share what's inside me through that kind of networks. The fact is so many people can read all your post even if it's wall to wall conversation e.g Facebook. It's not secret at all. Your posts can be read by someone else that is not your friends. So that's a bit irritating to me. I'd rather be "invisible" than to be "visible". Seems like I've been watched anonymously. I do love facebooking coz it can connect me to my old and new friends. And I kinda like the games too. I played Glamour Age and Medical Mayhem. I also have so many social networking. I started with sms.ac ( now known as FanBox Desktop ), Myspace, Friendster, Tagged, Hi5, Wayn, Zorpia, Facebook and the latest is Twitter. But non of it can be assured of in terms of invisibility. In this blog I can say something about anything at all. I like writing. I like talking. So I express myself from talking into writing. So this is me. Talkaltive and a bit freakadelish. Hahahahaha....

Dizzy, Dizzzy, Dizzier???

OMG... my head is spinning round and round... Is my blood pressure low again? Last time I checked it was 102/77 and my pulse is 73. The doctor said that I was tired. Probably less sleeping. Did I? Hmm... I can't figure it out. Just now, I just came back from the state building's canteen with my colleagues Mr. Nas and Ms. Rahana and my officer Mr. Azami. I am full now. But I was worried. Afraid that I would vommit coz I really don't feel good right now. What is wrong with me??? Hope I could feel much better anytime now.

The Beginning Day Of Sucks!!!

Ahhh...1st of February. How fast can it be? Today is Monday. And I'm still unable to get any excitedness of going to work. AS usual waking up early on 6.00 am everyday but taking a shower on 7.30 am!!! Hahahaha... then by 8.00 am I will rush to the office as my punch card time is 8.30 am. Thank God my fiancee let me use his car as he was in KL right now. And as usual I will arrive at my workplace by 8.25 am or something. Hmmm... I hate to say this but I WANT TO WORK BUT I CAN'T ENJOY THEM!!! Silly me hahaha.... Can someone tell me how to find the joyness in doing anything including my boring JOB???